bad mood

Why am i always in such a bad mood? I  feel overwhelmed and under appreciated i hate drama tho it makes me mad so i feel the need to control my moods maybe its normal and i should just let er rip.  I mean i was pretty happy aside from one thing i mean i was getting a car and applying for a job and my grandmas coming and I'm taking the test for my license Monday. and then boom poof the car overheats constantly and i doubt the manager Even got my application because the girl i handed ti to is a prep. you know i could be wrong but i don't think she likes me. I hate everything right now, my grandparents ( the other ones) are manipulative jerks. They play up everything to make them seem the victims and i got sucked into it. at least I'm smart enough to realize that right away on the contrary my brother is unwise to the fact hes being used. My boyfriend is immature I kno it. he isn't sweet at all. doesnt try to comfort me when im upset. doesnt buy me flowers. doesnt contact me for days on end and doesnt respond when he doesnt feel like it and just leaves me hanging. WHY AM I DATING HIM?? because hes a decent guy who holds open doors and takes me out to dinner. whywhywhy . prolly cus hes my first serious oneand i dont want to be single. UGH i hate this.my life is just sucky! sucky!!! yes you shut up you dont know me ! ihate it when m=people are like your life isnt bad im like yah? walk a mile in my shoes fucker. then tell me how to feel