bad mood

Why am i always in such a bad mood? I  feel overwhelmed and under appreciated i hate drama tho it makes me mad so i feel the need to control my moods maybe its normal and i should just let er rip.  I mean i was pretty happy aside from one thing i mean i was getting a car and applying for a job and my grandmas coming and I'm taking the test for my license Monday. and then boom poof the car overheats constantly and i doubt the manager Even got my application because the girl i handed ti to is a prep. you know i could be wrong but i don't think she likes me. I hate everything right now, my grandparents ( the other ones) are manipulative jerks. They play up everything to make them seem the victims and i got sucked into it. at least I'm smart enough to realize that right away on the contrary my brother is unwise to the fact hes being used. My boyfriend is immature I kno it. he isn't sweet at all. doesnt try to comfort me when im upset. doesnt buy me flowers. doesnt contact me for days on end and doesnt respond when he doesnt feel like it and just leaves me hanging. WHY AM I DATING HIM?? because hes a decent guy who holds open doors and takes me out to dinner. whywhywhy . prolly cus hes my first serious oneand i dont want to be single. UGH i hate this.my life is just sucky! sucky!!! yes you shut up you dont know me ! ihate it when m=people are like your life isnt bad im like yah? walk a mile in my shoes fucker. then tell me how to feel

Confused

When I kiss you I open my eyes and watch you
Long black lashes and cute appropriate nose
I love kissing you... Do you love kissing me?

This is so new to me, I don't have a clue
I go with how I feel, sometimes I hold back
I know I'm afraid of getting my heart broken
These feelings so new to me.. can't be taught
must be learned. Who did you learn from?

You're out of breath, I'm breathing fine
What am I sposed to feel when I kiss you
Are you feeling something different
I watch you sometimes.Do you watch me?

The Crow & The Butterfly

So I have decided, in a burst of insperation to; become fit, paint more, get up early, and well, write on here haha.\
so here i am. I guess i've decided Shinedown is my favorite because i'm listening to their album instead of just shuffle. I'm Thinking I need to redecorate my room. I'm just bored here, without a job. I need a job. More like I want one. Im the type of person who needs to stay busy just to be happy, my lazy self well likes being lazy but theres no point in feeling like crap everyday.  Well I need to finish painting and sleep. I would love to write more. I should put this energy into writing a book... hmm

Hungry?

What the heck does candy land have to do with CA? I just watched California 'gurls' .. so confused.  I love it though,with the adorable gummies. 


Right now I'm reading The lovely Bones. Its a very well written book but its disturbing and hard to put down :( i saw the movie first.. Must read!


Well so far my Friday the thirteenth consisted of waking up, pulling porcupine quills out of my dogs face, watching a disappointingly bad movie, cleaning my room and itching all over.
I watched NigaHiga on YouTube and that guy is so clever, he just keeps me laughing.


I'm seriously thinking about dropping facebook and myspace. People are just not any fun!
well i want to sleep. hopefully I actually wake up before noon tomorrow!
-Hitting the hay Me :)

Home free!

Sooo. I'm home! Monday I woke up at four, wanted Starbucks, didn't get Starbucks, but I got to go through the airport like the big girl I am without someone holding my hand. They kept looking at me all suspicious like I was some renegade fourteen year old who broke through their underage defenses. Every time I had to talk to one of the  people working there they asked me how old I was. Seriously. I'm fifteen people!! Look at your pretty little screens! They say the wonderful free number!  Anyways, after I infiltrated their special defenses I scored a window seat on the tiny flight home. And nobody sat next to me, a definite score if I do say so myself. I got off the plane and managed (sarcasm, people) to find the way to the baggage claim.  I saw my brother and surprised myself by grinning quite big and running to hug him (okay maybe I exaggerate but I was glad to see the loser) and then Dad walked up and I was very glad to see him. After that and lunch I would've gladly gone home but dad had bought a new truck so we went in and got it but knowing our luck we went to go home and it died. Yay. stupid old cheap trucks. So first we went and got a new battery, and it starts pouring on us while we change it. Then it dies again, so we head to Napa and finally figure out that its the alternator and finally get it fixed and go home. Home sweet home. I would write more but I'm beat. Up and out!

Watching Mythbusters

Alright, Roxanne isn't actually my real name. I am not telling you my real one ;) and I also might use code names for everyone else... or not... how would you know ;p. I was going to start this when I came to visit ma tante, but I'm a little bit lazy... anyways today I went berry picking, its quite fun. Those little berries are evil, I'm a delicious berry POKE hahaha I'm tasties but it sucks to picks me!  Then we went to china town and got some cool stuff. I;m christian but I bought a Buddha... I don't think that's bad cus I won't  worship it :). Oh well. I found the perfect locket today . Finally I've been looking for awhile. You know I Really don't want people reading this but hey blogging is fun, i doubt anyone will read this anyways.. So its been two days i didn't finish writing so... yeah. We went to Seattle yesterday and it was crazy , so many people lots of walking toooo, anyways we went to the Seattle aquarium, veryyy cute otters and seals, they are big show offs! so cute though. I woke up in the morning just itching all over. I think I had an allergic reaction to something while I was berry picking. I took two Bennadrill and I practicaly fell asleep immediately, and i was totally whacked out.  After the aquarium in Seattle we met Their friends at this place called the W. Its verrrry Fancy and Posh, so posh there were actors! We saw Jason Biggs and Joel Moore (he was in Avatar and Bones) It was my first celebrity sighting. Pretty sweet.   Today I'm watching step up. Its really good and makes me want to dance a little bit more :) my feet are swollen today from the allergies haha makes dancing a little harder.  I'm supposed to be packing but I'm to lazy. well here's my first blog post.. good luck me! -Originally Roxy